Perfection of Humility

15 Oct

What is the difference between humility and humiliation?  A few extra letters?  Does one need to experience the later to obtain the former?  Is there another avenue to arrive at the gateway to grace?  There is fear at the root of humiliation. The fear of weakness…or that others would perceive it in us.  But God told us that His “strength is made perfect in weakness” and that “perfect love casts out fear”.  Even in the light of these truths our lives are a continual quest for the perfection of humility.  And if we can get there without being humiliated, All the Better.  A missionary i met here said, “Being a missionary is killing me.”  And i agreed.  Before you misunderstand, i will re-write the sentence with different punctuation.  “Being a missionary is:  Killing me.”

Then God sent us to language school.  Maybe He had more than the obvious reason,…learning Amharic.  Maybe it was the eradication of Me, or at least another part.  Can we say that humility is perfected weakness?  Leaving behind the confidence of Me, we must move toward the only source of true confidence.  In the challenge of Amharic, God has brought me face to face with a new skill i have attempted to conquer.  This Waterloo for a hidden area of my pride.  When i look into the mirror of self accomplishment in learning this language there is nothing there that says, “You can congratulate yourself on a job well done.”  i come up completely wanting…and its killing me.  i have seen the fear of humiliation that taunts my weakness.  In that revelation,  i have a glimpse of the perfected man where the pride of Me is replaced with a trusting weakness.  I have been blessed to hear God’s voice say, not with ears but comfort in the heart, “My strength is made perfect in weakness.” 

There are areas in all our lives where our fears of humiliation mask the pride that keeps us from true humility.  When we finally take off those masks, part of the Me that prevents the fullness of grace is killed.  The hope that is shared in our hearts is the perfection of humility.  It is a life journey.

3 Responses to “Perfection of Humility”

  1. Ed Schwartz October 15, 2011 at 3:30 pm #

    Thanks for the thought provoking thought this morning. Dying to self… not an easy thing. Thankful for your blog. Blessings, Ed and Jeni

  2. Sarah Fiechter October 16, 2011 at 3:26 pm #

    Love this blog…great thoughts.

  3. Carol Klopfenstein October 16, 2011 at 11:31 pm #

    I would say learning that language would teach us all a great deal of “humiliation”- I am glad it is you- not sure my elderly mind could do it anymore- we will pray it sinks in for both of you- saw Adny- Jenna and the children at El Camino the other night- made me lonesone for you- we are continuing to pray for you.

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