Takin’ it to the Mat

28 Apr

Wrestling.  The takedown is everything.  Arms latched to shoulders. INTERLOCKED at the neck, but legs angling backward, feet spread.  Every muscle taunt pushing and pulling at the same time, trying to sense resistance and push.  Keeping a balance.  Jacob wrestled…with God.  Was it only spiritual?  Then why the physical damage to his hip and thigh?  Have you ever wrestled with God?  Think about it before you say, “No!”  I have.  Not physically…but spiritually.

“What have I ever done, to deserve even one of the pleasures I’ve known?”  Tell me Lord, “What did I ever do that was worth loving you and the kindness you’ve shown?”  Kris Kristoffersen’s song lyrics show he wrestled too.  When one experiences the vastness of the gulf between the prosperity of two different cultures, one feels God’s hands INTERLOCKED behind the neck.  Instinctively, the self-will spreads its feet and angles for leverage.  Pushing and pulling to preserve the old balance.  God is takin’ it to the mat.  Accomplishing the takedown.  And there is ME…pushing with a guilt for having…pulling with the conviction of how much to share.  Struggling to stay on MY feet.  Wrestling.  Finally realizing that my opponent is not my adversary.  He is my Father.  He is My God.  Finally realizing that the answers to Kris’s questions are…Nothin’ and Nothin’.  Collapsing to my back in the humiliation of defeat, but looking up to see only His sovereignty.  Realizing that there is really not humiliation in defeat, but humbleness in the victory of letting go.  All along the purpose of the wrestling was not about having the strength to stand in the old state of “balance”.  It was about God allowing each of us to “take it to the mat” with a part of ourselves that really needed to be defeated.  The selfish part.  The self-reliant part.  The faithless part.  From the mat, we look up and find a way to share hope with hearts.

2 Responses to “Takin’ it to the Mat”

  1. Bert April 29, 2011 at 10:18 pm #

    What a neat analogy of how we wrestle with self-will; I’ll remember that one!

  2. Carol Klopfenstein April 30, 2011 at 1:45 pm #

    sounds like the Lord is teaching you a lot- praying for you both- Dennis and Carol

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